Carpe Diem

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

mlm

Judges, I figure, they pretty make up their mind by the time the defence is about done. Then adjust the reasonings to make them legal reasonings by trying to confuse everyone with their lengthy judgments. But, you know who they're really out to get? First Year Law Students. It's like a sport for them you know. It's fun to make people's lives miserable, I have to admit that I enjoy taking the mickey out of people as well.

Therefore being the vengeful bitch I am, I shall become a judge and write Factortame-long-judgments and feed them to first years. OHHH SWEET REVENGE. it.is.mine.

You think I should rather, having gone through the hardship myself spare other innocents? NO EFFING WAY OKAY, IF I SUFFER, EVERYONE SUFFER AS WELL. That's how I think life should work, except if its me on the receiving end. Indeed, I am a hypocrite, bite me.

Yes, on days like these, I am extremely conceited and spiteful and make no sense and will probably cringe when I read this by the end of the week. However, stress makes me like this. I need Chris Rock. BUT THE STUPID YOUTUBE GO AND REMOVE EVERYTHING! HOW CAN LITHIS! HOW CAN?! I SAY MAN! HAIYA! (thick cina accent)

Goobai. I hope you have a fucking nice day. Vice versa.

If you do not get the vice versa part, sedih.

have a fucking nice day, vice versa = have a nice day fucking.

Faham? Bagus.

Now get on with your day and do something productive.(pun completely intended)

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Monday, January 4, 2010

It disturbs me that this is what I think about at 1am

Cheating Lying Bastards- I've heard so many people moan and groan about this. Got me thinking, about what exactly is cheating.

It really differs from each individual to another. A year ago, I'd consider kissing cheating but today, I'd tell my whomever I date to kiss away.

However, and this really is the BIG however for me, if I catch him talking to a girl day and night even with nothing physical, I'd skewer his balls.

Just because today I see how the emotional and physical parts of a relationship can be quite separate. I find though that the emotional part is not forgivable .. period.

On a completely separate note, I did not bring my Lauryn Hill record back and YouTube loads astonishingly slow in this part of Malacca.

Do you believe in intervention? I don't.. I think even if it pains you to watch someone go through something difficult, you need to stand back and let it happen(subject context of situation of course). Which reminds me of Translations again, I think you're about sick of me talking about this, but I find it so true. If you have a chance read Translations, read the analysis. Yes, even all you not-E.lit people.

The distance that is between everyone is firstly, to me essential to go through life sane and secondly to be able to grow without inhibitions. Everything in life that is important whether happy or sad, we go through it alone because although there may be other people crying or laughing with you, you know that this is your battle or accomplishment and only you'd know what it really means. And so, I personally think that it helps you not mind your own company.

Going through bad times doesn't necessarily make you a stronger person(I loathe the cliche), I think it just desensitizes you from most things and eases on your facade but when you're alone and you're being truthful with yourself, you'll know if you're actually stronger or just better at playing a part.

I really should sleep, goodnight.

Bambi

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Sunday, January 3, 2010

Hello and Good Morning,

It's 7 54a.m. since the first week back, I haven't been awake this early.

Yes, the exam stress dah sampai. You know they really shouldn't tell you that the exams are provisional especially for people like me, makes you uber lazy.

Being home is makes me procrastinate with my work.

I know I keeping whining about this, but I tell youuuuuu.. I sure fail first year. Serious okayh. Omgomg.

Why did I do Law, shoulda done like liberal arts or like..finance management - one week 3 hours ny, syok giler.

Oh, and everyone can stop wishing each other Happy New Year liao okay, getting old.

Bambi

p.s Do you see that the minute I reach Malaysia all my 'liao and malay words' just come out.

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Friday, January 1, 2010

She's like a broken record...

I have made a mess of everything yet again.

Cheers to me for being the weakest person alive. :)

I know what I have to and should have done a long time ago.

and its about time to be apart from things that matter to me .. for a very long while.

There's me and there's the rest of the world.

and I like me.. the rest of the world, I'm not too keen on.

I don't think I've felt embarrassed about my conduct towards you until today. I've always felt bad but never ashamed and today I feel it and so, I promise you that I will let it go.

Read Doria's recent blog post- I Wonder Where You Are. She and I are two of a kind when it comes to this. Oh well.

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Thursday, December 31, 2009

New Year

Best Moment 2009:

January 1st 2009.

Worst Times:

13th February and the period 3rd week of June up to 10 September.-

Most Embarassing:

Police knocking on the window.

Most Shocking:

31st December 2009

Angriest Moment:

A week before I left for Notts, involving people I do not speak to anymore and hope they have a good life with many kids :)

I don't really have any wishes for 2010 because I started 2009 wishing and hoping for many things that didn't materialize and in fact put me in a worse position. However, 2008 still wins first prize for worst year. 2009 wasn't that great but it was an improvement from 2008.

I never did blog about 2008 but it was bad because the first 6 months I wasn't talking to my best friend and within that six months a lot of shit happened, it was like once one bad thing happened, it just kept coming.

2010 doesn't have to be epic, it doesn't have to give me things I want but as long as I am moderately satisfied with most things in my life with no drama, I'll be thankful.

I hope all of you have a good year.

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Monday, December 28, 2009

MTV Classics

I am aging.

I am starting to fossilize.

I enjoy VH1.

Two weeks ago, MTV Classics was on and in my head it I was like :" Aih, so ancient" and then I started watching it and realized it was all 90s music. You cannot believe my shock. Firstly to actually realize the 90s are now a whole decade behind me.

Next year, I turn 20. My first two decades and so much has happened. I can't imagine the next four.

Through my experience, I think it better to just chuck New Year Reso's. They never stick or rather I never stick so yeah.

Quine's blog had this lessons learnt in 2009 thing, she learnt 6 things. I was trying to think to things that I actually learnt but I guess I can sum it all up and say that I've gotten a tad bit mature and my perspective on things have change a little.

I've decided to take next year a day at a time without too much planning and without too much thinking. Cheers mate.

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Friday, December 25, 2009

Cinderelli, Cinderelli.

HBO should stop playing that movie- Another Cinderella Story, it is..god honest..by far..the most..dumb attempt.. at a Cinder girl story.

I would like mice to sing and make me a gown too and of course that fairy godmother to grant my wish and my pumpkin to turn into a carriage however, its so sad that I live in a world where mice can't talk, designers charge me 1k easy for a gown and my fairy godmother is somewhere on BoraBora enjoying her vacation with her 20 yearoldhormoneraging boyfriend, far too busy to grant me a wish.